Another period of self abuse ended, now back to trying to tie everything back together words spun like embroidery, does it matter?
On reflection of the last year the only thing I've really learned is how fickle my own humanity it. I'm not the most grounded person emotionally. The past few months have seen most of my time eaten into by work and part time college which is pissing me off, not due to the content I love psychology but it's making me see myself and things in a way previously unavailable to me.
This month we've covered the developmenty of NLP and the various models therein which is interesting enough but it has removed any humanity anyone could possibfly have, reducing us to simple programable objects who with the right *command* can be made do anything.
It's streamlined my sence of everything, made me delve deeper into not only my actions but everyone elses. It's all inter-twined,. Your life is affected by so many variables you can't even begin to process them. Not only do yoou have to deal with your own problems but also other peoples because thier interaction with your life has an effect of your particular model of the world. So the only way to have real inner-peace is to solve everyones problems.. easy huh?
The more I've tried to distance myself from everything the more I realize I can't we're all bound together, each persons problems affecting the person next to them. Even though I've spent the majority of my life tearing everything apart I must now spend the rest of it repairing and helping where I can.
So on that note I leave you with peace and love and my most heart felt apologies to you. <3